Thursday, November 10, 2005

10 weeks today
Here is what our counter looked like with all the post - IVF paraphenalia. baby asprin, estrogen patches, oral progesterone, injectable progesterone, prenatal vitamins, tums... in the back ground you can see the numbing solution and the topical arnice for reducing bruises. yes.. this was a fun adventure! You can also see our 'little black book' - our folder of info from the doc, how to do all that we had to do.

This is what all the IVF shots look like in the sharps container. (yes, all of those were poked in me at some point)

Here are all the shots that went in my belly...


Here are all the shots that went in one of my poor bruised butt cheeks.


And here is why every single one of those shots was worth every ounce of pain, every drop of blood, and every freaking penny....

Here's another internet pix.. to show you the amazing development. :)


This was quite possibly my most enjoyable vaginal ultrasound experience ever. The moment he got up in there, the little guy was moving around. Kept bringing his/her hand to face. Could see the little heart beating, see the brain (or at least some sort of fluid) in the head, two legs, two arms. heartbeat at 183 - that glorious swoosh swoosh swoosh, placenta functioning wonderfully (that's more of a duller swoosh swoosh swoosh). I can't find the words right now to describe how amazing this experience was. I actually feel drunk from the whole thing. I have such an endorphin rush. I just want to curl up and stare that these grainy pictures for ever. For the first time today, I think it really really hit me, I'm going to have a BABY. Before it still seemed so surreal, but today, there it was, moving, measuring right on schedule, with arms, and legs and a little heart just beating away. THERE IS SOMEBODY IN THERE.
I feel so profoundly grateful that I get to experience this. I feel so profoundly grateful for being a woman. I feel so much like this is the most amazing dream I've ever had, and I dont' ever want to wake up.

Thanks for dreaming with me.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Our little miracle Baby will make you feel that blessed always.
Enjoy every moment!
Love,
MOM

Mamafae said...

Oh, hon. Your post has me in tears. I am so very happy for you both. Blessings for a beautiful pregnancy and all the wonders of motherhood to follow.

Nichol

kris said...

he or she is just beautiful! I think the goonie has your cute little nose. :)

PlazaJen said...

You brought tears to my eyes, too! I'm so happy for you both.
I have to say, all those shots, though? Freaked me the hell out. But it was an amazing photo series to illustrate the payoff.... Happy Friday, Happy Goonie!

C.Cheapskate said...

I've got a million things to say, but I think I can sum it up with this: wow.

Best Wishes, mama!

R said...

Congratulations on 10 wondrous weeks! I love reading the blogs of women who TRULY realize what a wondrous miracle it is to carry a child. I have been following along for awhile but just wanted to say this.

R
p.s. Your name has always been my favorite name for a girl...unfortunately my daughter has a cousin named Carina, otherwise your name would have been her name! :)

keli said...

proud. happy. it's a girl. i can feel it.
i love how you can see a smiley face on the ultra sound.
everyone here at my work, is forced to hear daily how excited i am about this.
LOVE YOU
K

Johanna said...

"that's not a baby, its a sweater with something on it"

So very happy for you :)