Dear Ruby,

Today you are three months old. One year ago yesterday a nice doctor put two blastocysts (big word for cells that are potential people) in my womb and wished me luck. We had no idea if one or both of these potential people would decide to stick around, and if one did, who it would become. And now... here you are. Wow. What a year we've had together, my little girl.

This month you've learned many, many new things. You've started giggling, although your giggle is more like a squeal with a wide mouthed toothless grin attached to it.

You've also started resisting sleep, boy is that fun for your dad and I. Bounce, shush, swaddle, lather, rinse, repeat. Sometimes the only way to get you to sleep is to put you in the sling and bounce bounce bounce. That exausts me, but because you're soooooo cute, we'll keep doing it.

You are growing so very fast. You're outgrowing more clothes everyday, and yet you still seem so small. I think you're about 12.5 lbs, but that's just an estimate from weighing you on the scale at home. You feel heavier in my arms when I bounce you to sleep, and yet you seem so tiny when I lie you in our big king sized bed.

You love to smile. When someone smiles at you, you almost always return the favor with a big silly toothless grin. It tends to cause the orignal smiler to completely melt into a puddle of Rubylove. This works wonders on your Daddy when he comes home from work a little cranky.

You are starting to notice other babies when you see them. You have a friend who you've known since long before you were both born ( you are both magic IVF babies ) and the two of you are finally getting to know eachother. You have another friend who should be arriving in the next few weeks. You're going to have lots of friends. For some silly reason, the thought of you having friends makes your daddy get all teary. He's such a sucker.

You are starting to get teethe. I think it will be a while before they poke through, but you are exhibiting all the signs of a baby on the way to teeth. You shove everything you can into your mouth and when it's something chewy you gnaw on it with all of your might. You also get very very cranky when your gums hurt, but we're learning ways to soothe you.

You are very very close to rolling over! You arch your back and roll to your side, and I'm sure you'll be completely rolled over soon. I can't wait for you to do this, and still I'll wait for you to do it in your own time. It's pretty obvious that you do everything in your own time.

A year ago yesterday a nice doctor put two blastocysts inside my womb. I left feeling scared, hopeful, and awestruck. I went home and rubbed my belly and asked you to stick around, and you did. What a year it's been.

All of my love, Mama