Thanksgiving

I have so many things to be thankful for this year. So many things. But since we just got home tonight from a three day trip to Seattle to visit my family, and I'm exhausted and miss my bed... I'll be short. :D Thanksgiving dinner was delicious, as was desert (awesome Pie Kailie!) and we had fun traipsing around the Seattle area. Ruby loves seeing family and had fun riding the monorail, and seeing Pike Place Market. She pretty much rocked Seattle senseless.
I'm thankful for the amazing man I'm married to. He's always been my biggest fan and my greatest champion. Throughout all of our challenges as a couple he's been strong and honest. And he's cute too. I am so thankful we chose eachother to spend our lives together.


More than anything I am thankful for my sweet baby girl. I love her so much more than words could ever do justice. I almost can't stand to let other people hold her for too long, as I begin to miss the feel of her weight in my arms, and the heave of her chest. I find myself a little crazed if I can't see her sweet face, or hear her squeal. (I'm nice though, and let my family hold her. I'm not one of those mean mamas who hoards her baby, even though I want to. hahaha) She is the perfect addition to our little family. She is just as weird and wacky as her dad and I, and has a brilliant sense of humor. She knows just how to make someone feel like they are THE. MOST. IMPORTANT. PERSON. EVER.
For the first time in a long time, I'm excited for the holidays. I love Christmas, and the winter holidays. I love giving, and the cheer and all the trimmings. However, it's a hard holiday when you are suffering through infertility. It's hard to find the childlike joy when you are missing a child whom you've never met. This year, whoa boy, this year, is going to be different. Usually I'm the person who hangs the lights late, and puts the tree up at the last minute. (yes there have been years when it went up a day or two before christmas). I usually abhor those who decorate early and leave things up late. Honestly, HONESTLY, I would have put up my christmas lights in september this year if Ryan would have gone for it. (for the record we're hoping for tomorrow! - although we have to take the haloween lights down first - yes, we put up halloween lights, you wanna make something of it?) There is something so pure and so exciting about christmas with a child. And this child is MY! CHILD! What is more exciting than that I tell you? I CAN. NOT. WAIT. to see her face when she looks at the tree. Anyway, I digress.
Thankful. I am so thankful she finally decided to join our family. I am so thankful we got lucky with our first IVF and also got lucky and have a living child in our home. My heart aches for those that aren't as lucky. I am so thankful that she is a happy, easy baby. I am just so thankful.
I love her so much, I almost can't stand it. And yet, I love her more each day.

Ruby at the table - hmmmm this "food" looks tasty
however, I'll stick with my catarpillar.mmmmmm catarpilar!

Thank you.